I gotta feeling

My loved one is in a coma,
i dunno will i ever get to be with her again.
i dunno if she'll ever forgive me for being that uncaring person.
If i had only send her to school myself everyday rather than letting her walk herself there,
she wouldn't have to face that tragic accident.
I sincerely regret. But what can i do now.
It's either she wakes up or off she goes to be with the Lord.
The doctors say she might take a year or two to wake up from the coma.
Will she forgive me then? Will she be willing to gimme a second chance to make up for the past mistakes? Or will she even remember me then?
It's hard waiting upon all those answers.Answers that are similar to a girl having cancer and her mum pondering upon the future of her child. Will she live long enough to face adulthood? Will she ever get old? Answers that might take years.Questions that will remain unanswered for years to come and ever swimming through your thoughts.
Eventhough so. I will wait for her answers. I will.

I wanna change. Change for the better and start a new leaf. Not selfish but loving,
not hurtful but caring and understanding. Not uncommitted but being a committed and loyal person.
We've never outgrown each other. I'm gonna prove it when you wake up.
I've changed physically, emotionally and spiritually the way i treated you,but i was trying to be someone else.Someone that couldn't handle commitment.

All that is gonna change when you wake up.
I'm still me. I never changed.
I'll be by your hospital bed every single moment till you wake up from your 'reveries'
playing a record "I'll Be There' by Michael Jackson.
Hoping that while you're soundly fallen into a deep sleep, you'll know that I'll be there, through it all.
Asleep or awake, i'll be your guardian angel, the one that cares for you the most. Those three words are meaningless cause that isn't enough to tell you, how much you're worth to me in my life.

Please..wake up. I beg you.=(

Writing stories is a way to express someone;s feelings and thoughts.
I just wrote it from the bottom of my heart what i'm feeling now.