Wednesday, July 22, 2009

I don't need no one, i'm better off my own.

heh.To make things straight,
i am single lah.
Dont simply say -.-
Being single is fun.=D

Friday, July 17, 2009


'One perfect example in your class who is hyperactive is..'

My eyes shifted upon Uvendran and Ke Xin, assuming they were the ones.
I was laughing to myself, lucky he never mention me.


What the heck? I thought, why me? Many of my classmates didn't expect that answer i think, wait i think its ALL.Sorry Mr Michael, you shouldn't have said me first man.

okay lah, my parents, teachers, coaches, some friends and many many others have said about me since i was born that i was hyperactive. My parents told me the first day i went in kindergarden, they commented me playful and hyperactive. No big right?
But i soon realize i had problems concentrating, attention span short, so i went to look it up.
Well, i have all except 1 of the symptoms faced by A.D.D ppl, from allergies to hyperactivity. i kept denying it within me. Hoping no one would realize.I even started controlling all my emotions since primary school when i first heard of it.. Then recently, i heard Michael Phelps has it too, but turn out so successful. That motivated me.
Then today, he had to blurt me out.
I'm not. I'm not.
Eventhough i am,
As long as i think i'm not.I'm not.
I wanna be normal. I am normal

Thursday, July 09, 2009

I gotta feeling

My loved one is in a coma,
i dunno will i ever get to be with her again.
i dunno if she'll ever forgive me for being that uncaring person.
If i had only send her to school myself everyday rather than letting her walk herself there,
she wouldn't have to face that tragic accident.
I sincerely regret. But what can i do now.
It's either she wakes up or off she goes to be with the Lord.
The doctors say she might take a year or two to wake up from the coma.
Will she forgive me then? Will she be willing to gimme a second chance to make up for the past mistakes? Or will she even remember me then?
It's hard waiting upon all those answers.Answers that are similar to a girl having cancer and her mum pondering upon the future of her child. Will she live long enough to face adulthood? Will she ever get old? Answers that might take years.Questions that will remain unanswered for years to come and ever swimming through your thoughts.
Eventhough so. I will wait for her answers. I will.

I wanna change. Change for the better and start a new leaf. Not selfish but loving,
not hurtful but caring and understanding. Not uncommitted but being a committed and loyal person.
We've never outgrown each other. I'm gonna prove it when you wake up.
I've changed physically, emotionally and spiritually the way i treated you,but i was trying to be someone else.Someone that couldn't handle commitment.

All that is gonna change when you wake up.
I'm still me.
I never changed.
I'll be by your hospital bed every single moment till you wake up from your 'reveries'
playing a record "I'll Be There' by Michael Jackson.
Hoping that while you're soundly fallen into a deep sleep, you'll know that I'll be there, through it all.
Asleep or awake, i'll be your guardian angel, the one that cares for you the most. Those three words are meaningless cause that isn't enough to tell you, how much you're worth to me in my life.

Please..wake up. I beg you.=(

Writing stories is a way to express someone;s feelings and thoughts.
I just wrote it from the bottom of my heart what i'm feeling now.

Wednesday, July 01, 2009

Thank you for the days. =)

"I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you want to cry

Started with a perfect kiss then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so, I love you enough to let you go
. "

Already Gone- Kelly Clarkson.

This song's so meaningful in a sense.
but my own song better =D
Love this song for now.